I don't know how to feel right now. This is what I really want to do all this time but now my heart feel all kind of emotions. Sad, guilty, all mixed up in my heart. Yes I'm really really sad to leave them all. I love that company, I love my job, I really love the peole there. I really really love it here. Everyone treat me so nice and positive too. Maybe because I know I will go, the time is near so I am little bit emotional and sensitive.
Even tho i'm really really sad to leave, I can't back off now because this the only perfect time and chance I will get. I know no matter how hard it is to leave now, I will regret later if I'm not going forward. I need to do this for myself. I need to move to another phase. I need to be brave to take risk and grab another opportunity. I need to leave even it's hard. I need be courage to change environment. I need to learn to leave something and start taking care myself. But i never know it would be this painful.
Yes it was too hurt and painful to leave 💔💔💔 I know I'm complain and whining a lot about my working place but the actual truth is I love so much. I'm not sure if this just a syndrome but yes hurt is hurt! 😔
Why I leave? Let's figure out or make up a reason lol. First, you know how I always unsatisfied how people there always treat me like I'm not exist and unimportant (work wise. As an individual I really like them). And everytime it was like that, I can't help but to think I better resign and leave them. Second, consider how I always burn out and physically mentally tired because of traffic jam. Especially now they want to move office that even more far which like +15 minutes. Third, I'm afraid if I'm not moving forward now I will stuck forever in my comfort zone. It will be hard to move later on. To think that I'm stil young, I should take a lot of risk instead of staying in the same place for too long.
I should work hard more than before! While I'm still young, while I still can! Be brave! You can do it! Work harder! This is a time you can experience a lot of things, take a lot of challenges, learning and growth! Don't stuck in the same place over again and stay in your comfort zone! Growth! People comes and go, that's how it works. Don't be sad. Insyallah, there something better ahead.
So I already take a week of annual leave. On Friday I will send my resignation letter to my boss. It is what it is.
I'm sorry. That's the most word I wanted to say to my boss.
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